I Am A Scorpion

A night long of streaming. . . Yawnz. . . If only it could stream faster, I would have finished watching my CSI Vegas Season 9 oredi. Tomorrow. Really. Tomorrow I am going to start studying. I can't pick up the books too early lest I forget everything by exam day.

Was watching Michael Jackson's 'This Is It' movie on my iPhone earlier, and despite the small screen and bad sound quality, I was filled with emotions. The world has lost a legendary performer of all time and I have lost my idol. I'd probably have cried if I could hide in the darkness of a cinema. It's all VHSC's fault. Had he told me earlier that he wasn't interested in watching the movie with me I would have arranged with others to watch. It was oredi too late when he conveniently expressed his disinterest; movie off screening. If only MJJ had performed his last world tour, I would definitely attend even if I have to go alone. .

Boss was talking about horoscope today and said Scorpions are vengeful and vindictive. I am. I will remember for always the injustice done unto me. Nah, not referring to VHSC. I am upset over the MM bag (even if it was unintentional); left a bitter aftertaste in my mouth. And I will remember it. I can remain cordial with people who have scorned me or whom have, in my opinion, stepped on my toes. But I will remember. And I will make sure my future conduct and interactions with these people are nothing more than superficial.

It's so windy tonight. I am going to have a good night sleep. Tomorrow. I will start revising.

Theory Lesson

I was trawling the net couple of days ago and I chanced upon the news on a book entitled "This is My Story" by Kasandra Kong. The book was written based on her own life experience; the betrayal and hurt she faced. 

I have not read the book but from the summary I reckoned that the gist of it all is probably on how the ex-boyfriend had treated her and the pain and loss she was subjected to. I admire her courage to share her traumatic past so openly but her rationale for doing so (to make it a lesson for other girls so that they would be more careful in choosing their other halves) I don't really concur.

No, I am not criticizing. I just have my own viewpoint. I feel that the book serves more as a tool to evoke sympathy than as a guidance for others and the interest on the book spurs from the very fact that it is human nature to feed on the essence of others' lives and stories. (Stories on human interest always sell well)

And I have my basis for saying so. Look around and listen. Every so often, you'll hear stories of friends or friends of friends on how they have suffered in the hands of their spouses/other halves or how their relationships broke down because of the intrusion of third parties. 

Such stories are not uncommon. And I feel that it can't be helped. Are there really tell-tale signs of how a relationship will turn out? Even if there are those people who are in it would be blinded by love and would not possibly realise until damage has been done. Having said so, I think that only by experiencing an ordeal can one learn to be stronger. Taking a theory lesson from someone else's story? I don't think that will work to anyone's benefit. 

The book, no matter how well written, will not inspire or encourage me to have a change of attitude. Again, it is someone else's story after all, I would put it down after reading and my life - good or bad - still goes on. And who knows? The next time I fall in love I will be blinded all over again. I would probably listen to friends' advices rather than remembering a story read. Maybe it's just me, but I still think its human nature to have to walk the path to learn the lesson; one has to fall to know the pain. Learn from one's own mistakes and pray that the same would not be repeated again. 

Just my two cents' worth. I have not read the book and I don't think I will read it. Not my kinda genre anyway. Should I buy Dan Brown's 'Lost Symbol' in hard cover or not?? I also want Patricia Cornwell's 'Scarpetta Factor'. Erm yes, I am a cheapo who is still contemplating on the amount to spend on a book. . .